Low mood...

I've been wasting my time this 2 days...
BIOLOGY papers on monday...
I still have the time to do others thing...
Haix...
This today really in great low mood!!

Last night when having dinner then my sis said don't go for architecture...
She said QS is much better and suitable for me...
At that moment i insist to go for architecture...
I'm not happy for what she said...
She said architecture consist a lot of history...
She said i don't like history...
I can't do it...
But the history we studied now and the history in the future it's different...
It's all about buildings...!!
After thinking of this problem the whole night i take a look at what is it all about QS going to do...
And i found out QS really might be more suitable for me...
It's quite lot doing calculation...
My maths not bad wad...(haha...)
And architect really needs a lot of creative and thinking...
I think i really should consider QS...
QS still got trigonometry and algebra leh...Haha...

This morning I called Taylor's to ask whether can i transfer to QS with that scholarship...
Yes i can...
I told her most probably i would transfer to QS...
I told my mum...
She said what's the matter i'm so nervous about this matter...?
Everyone said this is their business strategy...
But yes it's their strategy...
But what IF i missed this chance...?
Will you all pay for the higher fees???
You all want me to go TARC...??!!!
NO WAY!!
I won't go there...
I hate TARC student....!!
I hate them...
They are totally *****!!
I told my mum i rather don't want to continue my studies instead of going TARC...
My mum said Ellen's dad kept ask me don't be so nervous...
He said there's still a lot of opportunity of scholarship...
He said after SPM release...
Yes...
A lot of scholarship...
BUt i'm not that brilliant and intelligent like Ellen...
My results doesn't as good as anyone of them...
They can get better offer...
CAn i...??
NO!!
Don't ever think that I can get those JPA or whatever scholarship...
They are all intelligent children...
I'm not!!

I'm really really sad now...
Why is it in this time...
Why is it when I can't reach him...
What if he knows so much things happening this 2 days...??
What if...I'm telling him I'm crying now...??