What am I going to do?

Haix...Really don't know what am I thinking recently...Had not contacted him for the 2nd days...Maybe I'm really letting him to find his own freedom and I'm not going to care so much anymore...I should think other way else...I should not make every decision without thinking of others...But I really miss him a lot...No school for 4 days...Can't see him for 4 days...Hmm...Maybe this few days can help me to change my fate...I would like to say...I want to concentrate in my studies...I'm tired in others path...I had no strength to continue playing in such game...Really idiot me...I would like to pause the game and let others go on...I hope.....I'm the one who will be game over.......So that I won't be hurt such a long time.....